Confession #21: I'm always wondering "When Will My Life Begin"

It's hard lately to try and stay positive. I didn't get accepted into the musical theater program at Sam Houston State University. So, that was basically a double-whammy; getting rejected from both the School of Music and from the Musical Theater program at Sam. It's been hard; I feel like I'll never be good enough for anyone. I already deal with self-esteem issues on a regular basis, and not getting into the program of my choice hasn't helped make me feel better about myself. So, I'm back to square one. I've found a couple other schools that I'm going to audition for in the fall, and I plan to take a tour of the campuses during the summer; West Texas A&M, Baylor, and Texas Tech, and all three have musical theater programs.

I've been trying to think of the positive things about being at Kingwood for yet ANOTHER semester. Being at Kingwood will mean that I can take either Modern or Jazz class with Ms. Llanes (she's an awesome dance teacher), plus I'll get to be in Dance Performance again, and this means that maybe, just maybe, the dance I've been working on might get chosen for the dance concert at the end of the fall semester *fingers crossed* that would be really awesome. Also, since I'm now only about 12 credits away from getting my associates degree, I'm going to just go ahead and get it. I didn't really want to bother getting it; why get your associates unless you plan on taking a year off of school? But, now that I'm so close, I might as well go ahead and get it.

I've already done all my crying about not getting into the program; I've cried more this week than I have for the whole semester. Now, I'm just in a semi-depressed state. I am so jealous of all my friends who are going off to the colleges of their choice. I just feel like Rapunzel; stuck in my tower, wondering when my life will begin. If you've seen the movie "Tangled", then you know what I'm talking about. If not, here's a song from the movie.