Confessions #7: "My Heart's a Stereo", I've got "Moves Like Jagger" and Other Random Confessions

So it's been a while since my last confession, and so I'm going to post a couple different things in this post. To start off with, let me give you all a brief synopsis of what's been going on lately. It's November, which means the semester is more than half over, which for me means boatloads of homework and papers to do, along with several songs that need to be memorized for my voice jury, and I'm in 4 dances this semester, so there's rehearsals for that AND I'm doing a Christmas show at the Nathaniel Center, so there's rehearsals for THAT too. Good grief, it never stops! But at the end of the day, I love the insanity, hahaha :-)

Last week we had auditions for All State, but unfortunately I didn't make it, so I won't be going to San Antonio in February. I have to admit, I was really upset when I found out I didn't make it, and I'm still pretty depressed about it. But I've decided to try and look on the bright side. Also, I just sent in a job application for AMC Theaters and I'm hoping to get this job so that I can start working soon and save up for the trip to England and Scotland next summer. See, this is where the bright side of not going to All State comes in; while everyone else is in San Antonio spending their money, I'll be making money (if I get the job that is *crosses fingers*). Anyway, that's just a brief overview of what's been going on with me.

And now, some confessions! Haha! Oh! Before I do that, can I just say... WOW! Since my last post ("I'm in love with the perfect guy... I just "Haven't Met You Yet") I've had so many page views! Usually I don't reach 100 pages views that fast, but I have! It's amazing! And it's all thanks to you, my dear readers :-) Thank you to everyone who reads my blog! You guys are the best! :-) Okay, time for confessions!

So, if you've read my other blogs, you've probably noticed a theme in all of them: music. In all of my blogs, I share music videos and song lyrics. Why? Because I love music. It's who I am. I love performing, dancing, acting, all of it! And this is where my first confession comes in: "My Heart's a Stereo". The heart is generally seen as the source of all emotion and life, but for me, life doesn't just mean living, breathing and being alive. It means music. For me, music if life, and life is music. Therefore, this song is PERFECT to describe me. Not only is it a fun song (and Adam Levine sings in it. Can you say, sexy? Haha :-P) but it also talks about how the heart is a stereo that plays music. As I've said before, I believe in using songs to say things. When words fail, music speaks (quote by Hans Christian Anderson) and this for me is very true. So, if you want to hear what my heart is saying, turn it up and listen to the music :-)

Okay, next confession. No, I don't really have moves like Jagger, but I do love Maroon 5 (once again: Adam Levine = sexy. I'm just sayin, haha!) and this is just such a fun song that I just had to post it on here. Nothing really deep about that. Okay, moving on. Here's some random confessions!

Sometimes I wish I was a kid again... A scrapped knee is a lot easier to fix than a broken heart.

Life was easier when boys had cooties.

Music is my escape; from all the lies, all the drama, all the confusion, and all the hurt. Music is my escape from reality.

I'm not afraid to love, I'm afraid of not being loved back.

I may not be perfect, but I'm always me.

I believe in using songs to say things.

I don't fall in love easily, but when I do, I fall hard and I fall fast. So if you're not planning on catching me, don't make me fall for you.

"I'm strong, but I break. I'm stubborn, and I make plenty of mistakes. Yeah I'm hard, and life with me is never easy to figure out, to love, I'm jaded but oh so lovely... I'm confusing as hell. I'm north and south. And I'll probably never have it all figured out... " (lyrics from "Maybe" by Kelly Clarkson)

I love the rain. It's calming, soothing and makes me feel very content and at peace.

I love the woods. It's where I go for peace and quiet, to get away from the hustle and bustle of life and to distract myself from the chaos and confusion of humanity.

I tend to get along better with animals than I do people. People are judgmental, and animals will love you unconditionally. People hurt you, but animals have no end to their love. If you're looking for true love, look in the eyes of a dog or cat.

I bottle up my emotions and problems. I don't open up verbally to a lot of people, which is why it's far easier for me to write and sing about my problems and emotions than it is for me to verbally communicate them.

There are few people who I feel I can actually trust.

"It seems every time I find a good man, he's got a good little wife! I'm not jealous, but I won't lie, I don't wanna hear about your wonderful life!" (lyrics from "How I Feel" by Kelly Clarkson)

Sometimes I really wish I was a kid again, back in the days when: boys had cooties, you got "drunk" off of Capri Sun and Kool-Aid, you didn't care about watching your figure, working out was playing outside in the backyard all day long, and the only drama you had to deal with was if someone stole your crayons. I miss being a kid.

And now, time for some music! 

And here's a freebie.