Confession #20: Sometimes, I feel like I'm playing "Russian Roulette"

I'm sure you all have heard of the game Russian Roulette before. Well, I'm going to be honest, I never knew exactly what it was until recently, when I looked it up. It's a game of chance, and the stakes are as high as they can get: life or death. There are a few different variations on the game, but the usual way of playing it is simple. A person takes a revolver, puts a single bullet in it, then they spin the cylinder, place the muzzle against their head and pull the trigger. The game can be played with more than one person, of course, but usually it's a game played alone. Well, I came to a conclusion today. Life is a lot like playing Russian Roulette; you take a chance on killing yourself when you take risks, and there are a lot of risks in life. Risks of rejection, risk of failure, risk of physical death, risk of losing everything and everyone that you hold dear, and the list could go on forever. There's so much risk involved in life, and sometimes when we take a risk, we end up with a bullet in our heads. I hate to sound so pessimistic about life, I'm really not; I try to see everything with some kind of silver lining, or at least try to find some good in the bad things, although that's not always easy. I'm just saying, I hear people say all the time (I myself have asked this question multiple times) "Why can't life be simple?" Well, I wish it was, God knows I do, but it's not, and that's a hard reality to accept. So, unfortunately, sometimes we just have to pull the trigger and see what happens, because in life, if you don't take some risks, nothing will ever happen to you, good or bad, and isn't it better to have SOMETHING happen to you than to have NOTHING ever happen to you? What a boring life that would be, plus we would never learn from our mistakes or from the mistakes of people around us.

So, I know this is considered an "old" song by most people, since it came out in 2009, but I just recently heard it, thanks to a friend of mine from school. She sent me the link to this song, and the moment I heard it, I felt a connection to the lyrics. I would prefer not to go into detail about why this song means something to me; I've learned to keep certain things off of my blog. So, here you go, "Russian Roulette" by Rihanna.